‘Ceci N’Est Pas un Mémoire’ by Fernando Sdrigotti

The narrator of this story moves from his native Argentina to Europe, having picked his destination at random. What awaits him? Is he an economic migrant, an adventurer, a moody young man with no prospects? All he knows is this: “And this is where I am now, I will think and repeat uncountable times since then, the this and the now jumping back and forth. Ungraspable thises and nows.”

He has just arrived here; he has found a job. Is he to spend the rest of his life washing dishes? No, he will keep moving, without knowing where to. “Because it will take some more immigration officers until I shake off the illusion that I belong this side of the ocean.” And now, writing the story, he muses: “I may be trying to figure out what is actually real, and what made-up…I might be rejoicing in the fabrication.” Who needs a better reason to pick up the pen?

Collected in Jolts, Influx Press, 2020